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3rd moon [accidental voice]

...Why...

Does it matter? This world is unworthy of us. It has no crystals. It is below the notice of Baron's order.

Not again... How could I...

How could you? How could you not! This world has stolen us from our home! It has taken us from our vengeance!

Then again, those beasts might be helpful in retaking the crystals once we return to Baron. It is our duty to acquire as many as we can.

We don't need them! They are just as useless as the rest of them! As useless as the rest of you! Only I have the strenght to do what we must! Only I truly exist!

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to. Please, you have to believe me!

There is no point in apologies. They betrayed us, did they not? Our own son, turning against us. He deserves no less than death.

They abandoned us, did they not? Brother and Kain both! Even Ceodore and Rosa chose them over us. They must pay for this!

I don't want to hurt them! I never wanted to hurt anyone! I never meant to kill-

But you did.

Ceodore! Rosa! Kain! Brother! Everyone! Please, forgive me! I never wished for this to happen once more!

...I'm sorry...

((Cecil is hallucinating his destruction of Mist and Mysidia, being possessed and forced to help destroy his world, and his darkness taking over his body to kill everyone he loves. At the same time. So he sees Cherrygrove as a corpse-covered burning ruin, and he keeps switching between the three modes. Replies will come from whichever side of him is out at the moment.))

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Cecil? Cecil! What's wrong? Where are you?

[OOC: Eventual action since he's still in town?]

What's wrong is that I am unable to return to Baron and finish my mission. Certainly that is easy enough to understand?

Firion, run. Stay away from the City. If you come close, you'll die like the rest of them. So please, get away from here.

Or stay. Wouldn't a quick, painless death at my hand be kinder than waiting for the end of this world?

((Sure!))

I know we cannot return just yet but you will be able to soon, I-

No, I will not run! [He's opening the door from his room to go look for Cecil now.] Cecil, where are you?!

Near the Pokémart. Why don't you come over? We see each other so little these days.

Oh, but do mind the corpse. Some of them might not be quite dead yet.

What?

[He's outside and... doesn't see any corpse. Eventually, he makes it to the PokeMart and finds Cecil. It was a drastic change from the man he saw earlier but he wasn't sure what to do. Was this what had changed him before?]

Cecil?

[Cecil is currently curled up on the ground, but he stands when he sees Firion.]

Firion? Why are you here!? If you stay, they'll-

[And then everything changes: his body language, his tone of voice, his expression...]

Now, don't listen to him. Why would we hurt you? Your help might be quite useful in achieving our goals. Besides, you have never betrayed us, have you?

[And once more...]

Have you?

Because you are worrying me, Cecil, I-

[He took an involuntary step back when Cecil's entire demeanor changes. He can't exactly tell if it was for the worse but it wasn't exactly for the better either.]

N-No, I have not.

Of course you have not. You're not like Kain or Ceodore after all. I'm sure you'll see the reasons behind our duty.

Even shells such as you could prove useful, in this land.

Cecil, what are you talking about? What duty?

[Wait, "shells"?]

What do you mean by "shell"?

Edited 2010-09-18 17:32 (UTC)

Bringing Baron's order and justice to the world, and in doing so retaking the crystals our land was given. That was her request, and it became my duty.

[He looks like he wants to say more, but...]

We attacked our own friends! We helped bring our world to the edge of destrutions! That is not the face of justice!

[His look of anguish is replaced by something dark and cold.]

What is there to misunderstand? A person's true self is lessened by the shell that contains it, and the light that is imposed on it. Only I, who have been freed from the body that caged me, am truly myself.

[He couldn't help but step forward now.]

This is not your true self! The light is a part of you, it does not cage you.

[He is starting to get the idea that Cecil is not in complete control. But that led to the questions of: Who was?]

Who are you?

...Not our true self? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

[Have you ever heard someone speak in three voices at the same time? Because Cecil is somehow doing it now.]

We are Cecil! We are the sides of us we always keep hidden!

We are the side that hated and hated even as we pretended to forgive!

We are the side that was weak enough to be taken by the darkness!

We are the side that regretted killing but still obeyed orders, even when we knew they were wrong!

For years we were suppressed, repressed. But now we are free once more!

[No, he hasn't and it's damn creepy.]

No! Cecil, you are stronger than this, I know you are!

[This couldn't be just the darkness, could it? Cecil knew how to control both darkness and light! He remembered! But this was anything but control.]

Darkness is a part of everyone. But I remember, you said it yourself, you can make darkness into hallowed light. How could someone like that have so much hatred? So much anger?

Please, Cecil!

How? How?

Would you like to hear a story, Firion? Let's see. Once upon a time, a boy named Theodor lived with his father Kluya and his mother Cecilia in a little village. The family was very happy, for they loved each other and were expecting another child. But tragedy struck. A mob of inferior humans murdered Kluya out of fear of his magic, and the shock of it killed Cecilia in childbirth. What did Theodor do with the newborn child, you ask? Did he take care of him, as any brother should have? No! He took the baby and left him in the forest to die!

How about this one? Once upon a time, there were two good friends who loved the same. One of the two she loved back, and they were happy together. But their friend was angered by that, and he allied with a monster in hopes of taking the woman for himself. He failed, and returned to the light. But did he try to rekindle the friendship he had with the couple? No! He ran away! He left for seventeen years, never contacting his friends, letting them believe he might have died! And when he came back, did everyone tell him off for that? No! They took his side. Even the woman, and even her son! They both chose him, instead of helping us!

A last one, perhaps? Once upon a time, there was a knight who loved his king like a father. He was willing to do anything for him. But the knight realized that he was doing wrong after attacking a peaceful village, and so he confronted his liege. And because of that, he was thrown away! He was tricked into burning down a whole valley! But the knight decided to repair his mistake. He worked hard at it, and eventually he managed to do so. But then she came! She took over his mind, ripped his self in two, and used him to destroy his world! And when she couldn't use him anymore, she left behind nothing but a shell! A shell who could only depend on others, who couldn't fight his own battles!

Is that man not right to hate the world? Is that man not right to hate himself?

What about the man who fought to leave after being left alone? The man who saw past his friend's and brother's evil deeds to see the good and find the heart to forgive them? What about the man who rose higher than king, to do better than what the king had done? To be a better person than the king?

[He had no idea who "she" was and he couldn't exactly understand what she had done. All he could do was try to calm Cecil as best he could. But he simply didn't know what to do.]

Everyone has the right to hate the world or themselves or both... but it takes someone stronger to rise above the hatred and the evil. I know you are strong, Cecil! You rose above those hardships, you can do it again! Light, Squall, Zidane, and I, we all believe in you. Don't let the darkness and the hatred take control.

[He shook his head, stepping closer.]

Please, Cecil, take courage! I know you can.

I... I...

[He shakes his head. Talking about all of this must have done something for him, because now he looks less angry and more confused.]

I want... to be that man again...

I want... to be myself again...

[He reached into his pocket and pulled out a small book. He opened the book and revealed a pressed rose. It was the very same one Ur gave to Light who passed it on to him. It was not like the Wild Rose of his world and it would have died soon. So, he found a small, blank pocket book and pressed it within its pages.]

Do you remember what I told you about the Wild Rose?

[Tentatively, he rests a hand on Cecil's shoulder.]

And you can be that man again. I know you can. But you need to believe it yourself. You cannot simply want it.

You have to believe!

[Just like his dream.]

The Wild Rose... Rosa...

[He averts his eyes. It's too much, he can't...]

That girl... She made me attack my friends... She made me kill my own soldiers... She made me fight against Ceodore and Kain and Rosa and Cid and Edward... They cannot believe in me anymore. I cannot believe in me anymore.

But you did not want to, correct?

[This is breaking his heart, to see his friend like this.]

Cecil, they can and will believe in you again. I know they will. They are your friends! Even here, on this unknown world, you have friends who believe in you.

...If I defeat the girl... If I destroy all of her bodies, and whoever is leading them... Will I be forgiven? Will I be able to heal my world again?

But as long as I'm here, I can't... Even if you four are here with me...

You will always be forgiven, Cecil!

[He actually wanted to smack Cecil. Why couldn't the man see that he had loved ones nearby, to help him through this troubled time until he could go home?]

In time, you will go home and you will defeat that girl!

I... I...

Do you think... that they'll let me apologize... until I feel I don't have to anymore? Even if I do so over and over again?

...I still need to grow stronger, don't I.

Strong enough to go home... strong enough to protect them...

Cecil, they will let you apologize only one time. They would never expect you to apologize over and over again.

[He sighs softly. Okay, seriously, time for a bro-hug.]

[Hugs feel really great right now.]

.........How strange........

I feel like the darkness could take over my soul again at any time, and yet...

I think I feel... like myself again...

[He might be crying. Just a little.]

Being able to use both light and darkness, together... Somehow, I'd forgotten...

The darkness will always be there. [It's sad but true. And yay for hugs! You get more, since it seems to be helping] But as with darkness, there will always be light.

[He gives a smile]

But now you remember, yes? You have the power to turn darkness to hallowed light.

In both myself, and others... yes...

[So does he. As a matter of fact, his face seems to have actual expressions now.]

I did it, a long time ago. So did Kain, and Brother... And now I shall do it once more.

[And that smile is a welcome relief!]

Good. Now... perhaps we should go back inside?

But the flames...

[He stops and looks around.]

No, there are no flames, are there. Illusions?

Yes. I cannot find the cause. There are many other I have heard who are caught in these illusions.

First, those nightmares, and now mass illusions... We must find the source. It is certainly not benevolent.

It started when the fog came in. But from there, I have not a clue.

The fog? I wonder how far it has spread...

As far Violet City, as far as I can tell. The PokeGear has yet to give off a voice of reason. Nearly every voice I have heard was full of terror.

Are Squall, Zidane and Warrior of Light also affected?

I have not heard from them. Only you.

We should try to find them. They might also have fallen under the fog's influence, or they could have an idea about its source.

[OOC: Light is here (http://for-cosmos.livejournal.com/2967.html) if you want them both to help him out. :3]

We should check the in first, then. Light should be there, at the very least.

Last I heard, Squall was also nearby. I don't know about Zidane, but he said he was travelling with people from his world. If he's not alone, he'll be less vulnerable.

Squall is here, (http://transient-lion.livejournal.com/6868.html)if you two want to jump into that one as well.

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