106th moon [audio]

[paladinlost]

To be in accordance with this world's natural laws, a whole half of my heredity should have been removed from my body. The half I inherited from my Lunarian father, to be exact. As there are only two half-Lunarians in the world, I cannot know exactly how it sets me apart from pure humans, but there is no doubt that there must have been something for this land to take away from me.

[Cecil doesn't know why he feels the need to talk about this now. His words come hesitantly, like he doesn't quite know if he wants to keep going.]

...Yet I feel no different, barring the usual loss of magic that even full humans go through. I look the same. I act the same. My skin still does not tan, no matter how much time I spend on the beach. The manner in which I age remains constant even after five years spent in this world. It's as if the absence — or presence, for that matter — of my Lunarian blood is completely meaningless, as far as my life is concerned.

[He stops for a moment, and then here it comes. The true, uncertain confession.]

I... don't know what to think of that. At all.

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[paladinlost]

Physically, or emotionally? Not that either option would reduce the gravity of her crime. Such an act is unforgivable, no matter its specifics or justification.

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[a_sin_for_him]

There's no simple answer to that question.

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[paladinlost]

...I suppose not, when it involves something as personal and intangible as identity.

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[a_sin_for_him]

Suffice to say, I lost all of it. My human biology, my memories of my human life, my history, my culture...

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[paladinlost]

[Cecil gasps softly. That goes even further than he imagined.]

...I'm sorry. That must have been a terrible experience, one that no one should ever go through.

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[a_sin_for_him]

I barely even remember it. And yet I feel the losses, all the same.

Thank you.

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[paladinlost]

Is there any possibility for you to regain any part of it?

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[a_sin_for_him]

It's unlikely. Whatever life I have left is here. The culture I came from doesn't even exist anymore anyway.

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[paladinlost]

...This world truly can be a blessing, by offering a new life to those who need it the most. But it's a shame there are no other options.

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[a_sin_for_him]

I'm thankful for this place, the life I have here. It's more than I ever thought I'd have.

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[paladinlost]

And as long as you stay here, you have the opportunity to earn even more, to discover even more. That must be a nice thought, too.